Don't make me think

The best way to tire somebody intellectually is to stretch their mind to make them actually think. And "think", i don't mean talk some scientific of philosophical stuff, I mean to talk about something that makes you change your mind, that makes you reinspect all your thinking and the topic here is not really important. You can talk about politics, philosophy, psychology, air, friends girlfriends dog, fashion or your new shoes, topic is really irrelevant as long as it can keep you in your comfort zone as long as it does not question sometimes things, that you would consider the most fundamental beliefs of yours, because seeing is believing and doesn't matter how sure are you bout such "fundamental" beliefs it's just beliefs. For instance you can argue that freedom and tolerance are most fundamental values of any modern society, but than paradox of tolerance and real facts about actual order in this society may lead you to conclusion, that we are "forced to be free" or you may think that you friends sister is a slut, and feel kind of superior to her in the sense of morality for instance, but than you may feel uncomfortable if somebody would proof you wrong, because in both cases that would create a cognitive dissonance and that is what makes you think specially when you reason and do not rationalize. That is hard that makes think and that in my opinion is the major difference between small talk and hard conversations.

I don't like how I comunicate

I really hate the way, I'm talking, I'm writing and so on, however this may be my underestimation of well... me... But really comparing actual my writing and speaking (communication skills), and skills that I'm capable in possessing now I'm really Atila The Hun.
This kind of thinking on one hand helps to try to improve, on the other this lead to low self confidence, which is not exactly the property you'd expect from decent speaker - writer.
So what to do? Theory and practices the first thing, that pops in to my head every time, I think o learning of any kind. OK, now let's be more specific. What books and what kind of training? Yes, books, because, thats the best source of knowledge, at least most accessible one. So I came across with a book called "Thank you for arguing" and going to stick with that book until further notice.
However any good theory is useless without good practice. Where to practice? Now that's the question.

Whats new

No news - good news right? May be not, because, nothing new is nothing better and in my life philosophy there is no "good", only better. This is called habituation and it goes like this: if you fell better because you improved something you'll fell better for awhile, but soon get used to this, and this will stop making you feel happy.
My point is this: happiness is in changes, it's not some permanent state. That makes sense, because it's evolutionary advantage. It's good thing to fell euphoric, if you achieve something, not so good staying in that state permanently, because there would be no reason to achieve next thing. Right?

P.S. I know, that usually (like right now) I am being banal and have clumsy language, but... well don't like it, don't read it.

OK, so it's the big day. The statistics midterm. After reading statistics for two ours at 6:00 AM, I realized, that statistics is too difficult for me right now. And since I'm sure that neither statistics is very hard nor I do not have little intelligence for it, I think that I'm doing something completely wrong, and/or haven't enough will, stamina or whatever, to stick with a task till the and either i need more training or (as A. Bandura's theory says) have too little faith in my abilities. Well I do have it in most of the time, until face some really serious task. I guess in either case It's better for me to practice to stick to the hard tasks than.

First record

I'm writing here for the first time and really don't have anything to say. Just that this is going to be my habit to write my blog. Some of you may like it some of you may not, but frankly, right now I couldn't care less.